Sunday, December 30, 2007

still remember this conversation?
in irc~
private chat~
i always kept it~
i love u as much as always~
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11:31:17] maki`emo>dear
11:31:28] izgnil>?
11:31:41] maki`emo>rem ur lunch
11:31:46] maki`emo>dont skip everytime
11:32:08] izgnil>ok
11:32:10] maki`emo>ytd u slp le ah?
11:32:16] izgnil>yeah
11:32:39] izgnil>i slept at arnd 10+
11:32:49] maki`emo>so pig ah
11:32:50] maki`emo>haha
11:32:53] izgnil>o.o
11:33:01] maki`emo>today np got wgt
11:33:07] maki`emo>kw team nw playing
11:33:11] izgnil>o.o
11:33:40] izgnil>i was supposed to work for wgt on the 28th
11:33:42] izgnil>=/
11:33:46] *Maki`EMO muack iZgNiL
11:33:50] izgnil>o.o
11:34:11] *Maki`EMO muack iZgNiL
11:34:12] 8Maki`EMO muack iZgNiL
11:34:12] *Maki`EMO muack iZgNiL
11:34:31] *Maki`EMO hug iZgNiL
11:34:35] izgnil>O.o
11:34:49] izgnil>last time its always me doing it
11:34:52] izgnil>=/
11:35:48] maki`emo>i didnt give u tat attention
11:35:54] maki`emo>nw i giving all to u
11:37:39] maki`emo>laopo
11:38:02] izgnil>?
11:38:30] maki`emo>later i come fetch u
11:38:59] izgnil>dun nid bah
11:39:21] maki`emo>y sia
11:39:46] izgnil>nth
11:41:50] maki`emo>gxl u was there?
11:42:50] izgnil>yeah
11:42:53] izgnil>i was there
11:43:02] maki`emo>y on ur blog u say late
11:43:18] maki`emo>laopo
11:43:23] maki`emo>i love u
11:43:25] maki`emo>yes i do
11:43:34] maki`emo>i`ll b with u
11:43:45] maki`emo>as long as u wan me go
11:43:50] maki`emo>until e end of time
11:44:48] maki`emo>dear?
11:44:50] izgnil>?
11:44:55] izgnil>sry i was on the phone
11:44:59] izgnil>with moi mum
11:45:01] maki`emo>o ok
11:46:03] maki`emo>nw still on ah
11:46:43] izgnil>nope
11:46:47] izgnil>just put down
11:48:31] maki`emo>dear
11:48:59] izgnil>?
11:49:10] maki`emo>u still angry ah
11:49:14] izgnil>why?
11:49:52] maki`emo>sry i was stupid
11:50:10] maki`emo>can u forgive me
11:50:29] izgnil>how was you stupid?
11:50:44] maki`emo>i was being a mutuo
11:52:29] izgnil>mu tou?
11:52:31] izgnil>=/
11:52:43] izgnil>louise said "dumbass"
11:52:45] izgnil>=/
11:53:22] maki`emo>she scold me
11:53:38] izgnil>she scold you what?
11:53:38] maki`emo>wooden block dumbass insensitive creature
11:53:53] maki`emo>pro in gaming , very lan in games of love
11:55:00] maki`emo>i tink tats all she said
11:55:21] izgnil>okie
11:55:37] maki`emo>lao po forgive me plz
11:56:44] maki`emo>e regrets keep striking deep into my heart
11:57:06] maki`emo>i realise e pain u gone thru
11:57:43] maki`emo>hao bu hao
11:58:09] maki`emo>let us cont ur love story
11:58:17] yrcgnil>cont?
11:58:19] yrcgnil>how?
11:58:26] yrcgnil>when moi heart is in shreds?
11:58:42] maki`emo>y is it shreds
11:58:44] maki`emo>dear dont cry
11:59:14] maki`emo>even its in shreds its my doing
11:59:18] maki`emo>let me piece em back
11:59:45] maki`emo>its our love story
11:59:47] maki`emo>our promise
12:02:39] yrcgnil>promise?
12:02:42] yrcgnil>=/
12:02:46] maki`emo>?
12:03:27] yrcgnil>moi heart is torn apart already
12:05:08] maki`emo>fix em back
12:05:49] maki`emo>u kick ban me for?
12:06:08] yrcgnil>nope
12:06:21] yrcgnil>its a discussion
12:06:22] yrcgnil>=/
12:06:31] maki`emo>wa dicussion
12:07:59] yrcgnil>u wanna go in the channel again?
12:08:01] yrcgnil>ok le
12:08:20] maki`emo>wa u hiding
12:08:36] yrcgnil>i am not hiding anything
12:08:44] maki`emo>i dont care wa they say
12:09:03] maki`emo>its ur words tat i care for
12:11:14] maki`emo>wa u dicuss abt?
12:11:17] yrcgnil>care?
12:11:21] yrcgnil>hiz
12:11:22] yrcgnil>haiz
12:11:31] maki`emo>yes c a r e
12:11:38] yrcgnil>some things are not meant to be seen
12:12:16] maki`emo>u still zai hu wo ma
12:12:50] yrcgnil>yeah
12:12:53] yrcgnil>but what the point?
12:13:01] yrcgnil>you dun appreciate it
12:13:07] maki`emo>i do
12:13:27] maki`emo>u already explain to u e every lil actions i do
12:14:27] yrcgnil>i'm still neglected
12:14:33] yrcgnil>left alone
12:14:41] maki`emo>now u r not alone
12:14:49] maki`emo>i`ll b always by ur side
12:14:49] yrcgnil>and i am afraid of being left alone
12:15:05] maki`emo>u mean now still neglected?
12:16:03] maki`emo>dear?
12:16:20] yrcgnil>yes?
12:16:23] yrcgnil>yeah
12:16:29] maki`emo>nw?
12:16:44] maki`emo>am i doing not enuf
12:17:34] maki`emo>if ur office allow to
12:17:37] maki`emo>i come now
12:17:52] yrcgnil>nvm
12:18:01] yrcgnil>there's no need
12:18:02] yrcgnil>T_T
12:18:35] maki`emo>o shit
12:18:38] maki`emo>u nv go eat
12:18:45] maki`emo>u eating?
12:18:58] yrcgnil>i haben eat yet
12:19:11] maki`emo>go eat then
12:19:50] maki`emo>u eating?
12:20:01] yrcgnil>not yet
12:20:02] maki`emo>or skipping
12:20:03] yrcgnil>later
12:20:05] maki`emo>o
12:20:09] yrcgnil>maybe skipping
12:20:12] yrcgnil>no apetite
12:21:12] maki`emo>hw can u forgive me
12:23:18] maki`emo>dear..
12:23:25] depressed>?
12:23:44] maki`emo>hw can u forgive me
12:24:58] maki`emo>if i land myself in hospital now , will it b different
12:25:23] depressed>what are you thinkg?
12:28:34] maki`emo>nth
12:28:58] maki`emo>wa time u gonna eat
12:29:46] maki`emo>dear?
12:30:15] depressed>?
12:30:17] depressed>dunno
12:30:22] depressed>see first
12:31:24] maki`emo>dear as long as u r there
12:31:34] maki`emo>i love u is dedicated to u
12:32:46] maki`emo>lets abide to e promise hao bu hao
12:32:52] maki`emo>i know i been in wrong
12:33:02] maki`emo>u gotta let me repent for my doings
12:33:45] maki`emo>laopo ke yi ma
12:34:14] depressed>how would i know if you wouldn't revert back
12:34:15] depressed>T_T
12:34:59] maki`emo>im awake from e hibernation
12:35:08] depressed>hibernation?
12:35:14] depressed>since when are you in hibernation?
12:35:37] maki`emo>how u know i wont revert back
12:35:59] maki`emo>u scare i revert back?
12:36:09] depressed>VERY SCARED
12:36:25] maki`emo>i never doubt u
12:36:33] maki`emo>n i always said
12:36:37] maki`emo>nv doubt a maki
12:36:41] depressed>=)
12:36:46] depressed>yeah i know tt
12:37:04] depressed>i'm going out for lunch
12:37:05] depressed>bbl
12:37:09] maki`emo>k
12:37:15] maki`emo>ard wa time back
12:37:25] depressed>dunno
12:37:31] depressed>130 like tt
12:37:38] maki`emo>tell me when u get back ok
12:37:42] maki`emo>enjoy ur meal dear
13:12:04] depressed>back
13:13:31] maki`emo>wa u eat
13:13:50] daedgnil>horfun
13:13:57] daedgnil>later needa puke again le
13:13:59] daedgnil>argh
13:14:07] maki`emo>?
13:14:09] maki`emo>wa happen
13:14:19] maki`emo>e drugs effect?
13:14:33] daedgnil>moi anti-depressant medicine will cause me to puke out whatever i ate
13:15:06] maki`emo>tat med eat b4 meal or after?
13:15:30] daedgnil>once every night b4 sleep
13:15:42] daedgnil>but the side effects will last the whole day
13:15:49] maki`emo>..
13:15:58] maki`emo>no wonder u feel weak
13:16:03] maki`emo>no energy
13:16:41] maki`emo>u dont tink of puke
13:16:43] maki`emo>cant control 1
13:16:49] maki`emo>i mean can
13:17:03] daedgnil>mine will come out itself de
13:17:06] daedgnil>i can't control
13:17:08] daedgnil>T_T
13:17:17] maki`emo>i help u control lo
13:17:19] maki`emo>haha
13:18:00] daedgnil>...
13:18:15] maki`emo>will tk care of u ma
13:18:18] maki`emo>hehe
13:19:50] maki`emo>no more angry or
13:20:10] daedgnil>.
13:20:49] maki`emo>. mean or rite
13:21:24] *dAeDgNiL headache
13:21:26] daedgnil>bbl
13:21:37] maki`emo>k
13:21:50] maki`emo>hw long
13:22:04] daedgnil>dunno
13:22:08] daedgnil>head damn pain
13:22:22] maki`emo>ur med all taken?
13:22:27] daedgnil>nope
13:22:36] daedgnil>i hate med
13:22:39] daedgnil>argh
13:22:41] maki`emo>u must hav miss out
13:22:43] maki`emo>something
13:22:51] maki`emo>i feed u next time
13:22:58] daedgnil>i only missed out moi inhaler
13:23:03] daedgnil>feed me what?
13:23:09] maki`emo>med lo
13:23:11] daedgnil>.
13:23:15] daedgnil>dun nid
13:23:19] daedgnil>bah
13:24:22] maki`emo>y u so harsh to me
13:24:56] daedgnil>harsh?
13:25:16] daedgnil>i i were harsh i wouldn't be talking already...
13:25:17] daedgnil>haiz
13:25:50] maki`emo>o
13:26:07] maki`emo>then dont say nvm n dun nid again
13:26:11] maki`emo>say ok
13:26:12] maki`emo>or ya
13:26:16] daedgnil>.
13:27:55] maki`emo>forgiven granted?
13:28:00] dead->.
13:28:48] maki`emo>dear?
13:28:58] dead->what?
13:29:15] maki`emo>grant ok?
13:29:17] maki`emo>or
13:29:23] dead->no
13:29:40] maki`emo>why
13:30:28] dead->you know how tired i am?
13:30:49] maki`emo>i know
13:30:54] dead->how?
13:31:06] maki`emo>very extreme
13:31:33] dead->do you know tt i am too tired? too tired to the point tt i just feel like dying
13:32:23] maki`emo>u scare i revert is it
13:33:05] dead->tt is one thing i am afraid of
13:33:15] maki`emo>and wads other?
13:33:26] dead->and plus i am very very afraid to be alone
13:33:35] maki`emo>i wont leave u alone
13:33:57] dead->do you know that there were times when you were not at home and i am the only one at home?
13:34:06] dead->do you know how i survived?
13:34:28] dead->i curled moiseld up in a corner and fell asleep until you brp came back
13:34:36] dead->bro*
13:34:40] dead->moiself*
13:34:55] maki`emo>yeah
13:35:05] maki`emo>and tat day u relapse
13:35:12] maki`emo>i throw off my work
13:35:23] maki`emo>n went to hospital
13:35:45] maki`emo>my bro got work early
13:35:49] maki`emo>i send him back
13:36:04] maki`emo>e nurse say u coma
13:36:13] maki`emo>i ask him to call me asap u wake up
13:36:19] maki`emo>he didnt do so
13:36:26] maki`emo>until u came b in e morning
13:36:49] dead->tt's not the only time...
13:37:09] dead->there were times i fainted back at your house when i am alone
13:37:17] maki`emo>dear
13:37:26] maki`emo>we r talking abt now
13:37:28] maki`emo>n future
13:37:43] maki`emo>if u bring up past
13:38:04] dead->then?
13:38:45] maki`emo>we dont live in past
13:38:56] dead->and?
13:38:56] maki`emo>we pave towards future
13:39:58] maki`emo>tat times tat u r alone
13:40:02] maki`emo>i wrking
13:40:06] maki`emo>n came b asap
13:40:08] dead->yeah
13:40:19] dead->tt's why i never told you
13:40:30] maki`emo>but i realise myself
13:40:34] maki`emo>i stop my wrk
13:40:38] maki`emo>but i didnt tell u
13:41:05] dead->why didn't you tell me?
13:41:25] maki`emo>i dont wan u to worry too
13:41:31] maki`emo>liek u do
13:41:34] maki`emo>coz u love me
13:41:38] maki`emo>n i do too
13:42:59] maki`emo>didnt u realise after e incident
13:43:06] maki`emo>i go wrk lesser then no more
13:43:22] dead->which incident?
13:43:33] maki`emo>e above i mention
13:43:39] maki`emo>coz i dont wan u to b alone
13:44:02] maki`emo>i admit i m very into e games
13:45:15] dead->uh huh
13:46:15] maki`emo>dear hw will u forgive me
13:47:28] maki`emo>if i dont care or love
13:47:36] maki`emo>i wont b here trying so hard
13:48:49] maki`emo>dear u there?
13:48:53] dead->ya
13:48:53] dead->ya
13:49:56] maki`emo>i rly trying hard
13:50:16] maki`emo>to go on with our love story
13:51:12] maki`emo>dear u bz?
13:52:08] dead->nope
13:52:11] dead->but very tired
13:52:21] maki`emo>u ok ma
13:52:37] dead->yeah
13:52:43] dead->but head damn dizzy
13:54:02] maki`emo>relax
13:55:25] maki`emo>drink some water
13:56:47] maki`emo>feeling better ma
13:57:49] maki`emo>dear u resting?
14:05:22] dead->bth
14:05:42] maki`emo>?
14:06:05] maki`emo>u scare me sia
14:06:14] maki`emo>u fell aslp?
14:07:30] maki`emo>dear?
14:09:01] maki`emo>dear u bth wa
14:43:48] dead->not fell asleep
14:43:54] dead->i went away from the computer
14:43:58] dead->back to moi seat
14:44:04] dead->to rest
14:44:05] dead->coz
14:44:08] dead->head damn pain
14:44:12] dead->damn dizzy
14:44:25] dead->feels like i'm floating or something
14:44:29] maki`emo>i was worried
14:45:48] maki`emo>i dunno where to dl those funky stuff
14:45:52] maki`emo>only got default 1
14:46:10] dead->huh>
14:46:15] dead->diaoz
14:46:19] maki`emo>e kiss thing lo
14:46:27] *Maki`EMO muacks kelly dear dear
14:46:27] dead->o
14:47:24] dead->you asked louise to call me?
14:47:28] dead->O.o
14:47:32] maki`emo>ya
14:47:41] maki`emo>i tht wa happen to u
14:47:54] maki`emo>u also dont wan ans my calls
14:49:46] izgnil>.
14:54:38] maki`emo>gt feel any better?
14:54:53] izgnil>nope
15:30:28] maki`emo>y u haiz
15:30:40] izgnil>head gonna burst soon
15:31:11] maki`emo>chill abit
15:31:12] maki`emo>relax
15:42:24] maki`emo>dear..
15:42:43] izgnil>?
15:43:06] maki`emo>i wait for u at e same place later
15:43:36] izgnil>dun nid la
15:44:18] maki`emo>i will b there
15:44:23] izgnil>.
15:44:54] maki`emo>k
15:48:38] maki`emo>i still owe u those muacks
15:49:18] maki`emo>rite dear?
15:49:53] maki`emo>?
15:51:00] izgnil>.
15:52:42] maki`emo>u still rem tat time u hide ur past from me
15:52:45] maki`emo>then u told me
15:54:02] maki`emo>rem ma?
15:54:16] izgnil>which paste?
15:54:28] maki`emo>e les thing
15:54:35] izgnil>LOL
15:54:37] izgnil>ya?
15:54:58] maki`emo>i nv depise u or blame u wa
15:55:38] izgnil>then?
15:56:32] maki`emo>u juz dont wan forgive me?
15:57:33] izgnil>u wun be able to take care of me... as what i went thru last time...
15:57:45] maki`emo>hw u know i wont
15:58:13] maki`emo>i trying n u don accept my every effort
15:58:20] izgnil>even though i love you... but haiz...
15:58:47] maki`emo>y cant we cont our storry
15:59:59] maki`emo>i care i cherish i love
16:00:04] maki`emo>tats y i doing all these
16:00:41] maki`emo>i know it wont b ez
16:00:49] maki`emo>but i alrdy decide
16:01:03] maki`emo>but u dont make it so hard ma
16:01:37] maki`emo>dear?
16:20:05] izgnil>?
16:35:34] maki`emo>so
16:42:23] izgnil>?
16:42:26] izgnil>so what?
16:44:06] maki`emo>dont blame her
16:44:09] maki`emo>she trying to help
16:44:25] izgnil>i never blame her
16:44:33] maki`emo>i know
16:44:37] maki`emo>u blame me
16:45:20] maki`emo>wads e main issue
16:45:28] maki`emo>me being engross n neglect u?
16:47:02] maki`emo>dear?
16:47:11] izgnil>yes?
16:52:32] maki`emo>tats e main concern?
16:52:47] izgnil>primarily yes
16:54:27] maki`emo>secondary?
16:57:07] maki`emo>wads e secondary
16:57:25] izgnil>haiz
16:57:30] izgnil>i dunno what to say
16:57:40] izgnil>moi dad hates your hair too =/
16:57:48] maki`emo>..
16:57:55] maki`emo>coz its dyed?
16:58:07] izgnil>he says its too erm... golden
16:58:22] maki`emo>or
16:58:31] maki`emo>note taken
16:58:51] maki`emo>its u
16:58:58] maki`emo>im concern of
16:59:06] izgnil>me?
16:59:10] maki`emo>yes
16:59:46] izgnil>after each time i asked you something all i felt was moi heart had been slowly ripped into bits and pieces
17:00:09] maki`emo>ask me wa
17:00:22] izgnil>alot of things
17:00:23] izgnil>=/
17:00:27] maki`emo>when situation comes
17:00:29] maki`emo>i m so lost
17:00:43] maki`emo>cant speak n tink well
17:01:16] maki`emo>u mean now
17:01:25] maki`emo>regarding to e things u ask?
17:03:07] maki`emo>?
17:04:44] izgnil>nvm already
17:04:51] izgnil>i've got nth to say le
17:05:00] maki`emo>[16:51] but i did ask him b4 he stopped working
17:05:07] maki`emo>if i tell u
17:05:17] maki`emo>u will skip more meals
17:05:24] maki`emo>dont tk money from me
17:05:32] maki`emo>rite?
17:05:56] maki`emo>tat is wa i dont wish to c
17:06:03] maki`emo>so i kept from u
17:06:24] maki`emo>coz i dont wan u to suffer
17:07:22] izgnil>even though you dun say
17:07:31] izgnil>i also refrained from taking money from you
17:07:41] izgnil>unless i really have no choice
17:07:45] maki`emo>at least u wil tk ma

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